THANK YOU GOD!! : PULA !

  Hello my Loves, 

its been ages since my last post and I am beyond sorry for the delay, but LIFE HAS BEEN BEAUTIFULLY AMAZING LATELY; so I was quite busy with vida la vida-ing, enjoying life to the fullest, present in the moment and far away from online pressure and mental stress.

I am beyond happy to be able to announce that - even when I haven't had my breakthrough yet and David is still held captive in music prison, I am finally actually happy and that also makes me feel beyond grateful, victorious, safe, peaceful, faithful and proud. 

Proud because, after 30 years of adventurous living in Germany, other parts of EUROPE, USA, ASIA, AUSTRALIA, 

and after a horrifying time in Porec since March 2023, 

I finally made it HOME, 

I MOVED BACK TO THE BEAUTIFUL CROATIAN COAST TOWN PULA, 

where I grew up three  and a half years but then, because of the war and better perspective for me regarding essential factors like medical care, human rights, support, opportunity & education, my mom managed to leave her abusive forced marriage and get to Frankfurt, Germany with me as her only child, where we settled, she got married to a young medical student and they had another child together in 1994: my beautiful younger sister.

I am so so happy here , I feel beyond welcome and at the right place at the right time, through GODS magic divine intervention I moved into a beautiful lightful apartment only about 10 minutes by foot to the city center and iconic places like the legendary ARENA, where gladiators have originally been fighting to entertain the masses already thousands of years ago. 

Even though, it is not a massive city, I believe PULA is the most iconic and after Rijeka the biggest city in the northern part of coastal Croatia, magical ISTRA, which is directly sharing borders with Italy & Slovenia and also globally known as a popular & cherished travel destination for tourists from all over the world. 

For me personally, PULA has always had its own charm, of course, knowing that its basically my heritage, where my ancestors grew up and lived for generations, my home where I spend a most wonderful start into a beautiful magical life and a place, which has always gifted me with happiness, excitement, joy, contentment and peace, as I have been spending various weeks of many summers here with my family & best friends, indulging without limits into the uniquely perfect Adriatic flair and luxury lifestyle, which is always served with the highest possible standard of perfection, crafted through culture and craftsmanship, 

but first and foremost, 

my life was blessed and shaped by the most wonderful gift, that I have ever gotten and miss so much every day: 

my wonderful croatian family

which is, 

of course, 

my MOM, 

who I believe to have a lot of fans and friends in this city, who would all be more than happy to see her again and to celebrate family & friends reunion together

my beloved younger Sister, 

who I haven't seen and or talked to for ages, I hardly know what she is doing but I miss her, I think she is in Munich with her boyfriends and I pray that god may always bless and protect her madly, as I am not there to do that, sadly. I love you Beyond N! <3

my Baka

who lives in the center of Istra but I have only seen her for about 1 hour since I got to Croatia on first of march 2023, don't ask me why, I've spend almost every summer with her and 

my Dida, 

whos more Diva than anyone else, but the coolest guy in know and the only man except David that I actually want to spend time with because we always got along very well and I miss him a lot but for some weird reason, which is unbeknownst to me, 

they don't want to see me, at least he doesn't, Baka is still nice and we are in contact every day and she's about to come visit me in my new beautiful apartment, which I am lookin forward to, 

but I miss their home, which has been my home for so long and so much time and after being systematically kicked out & just put on the street regularly since 2018, especially by my step father and his family out of literally all our homes and real estates, over and over again, while all my dignity, dogs & belongings were either taken away or destroyed or just thrown away or "donated", 

I thought I would have a new start and experience a glamorous rise when I moved to Vienna in June 2022, together with my 3 dogs, but the only thing we experienced, was the most eye opening, saddest, baddest and most heartbreaking truth behind a city which is alive through stone but colder than eternal ice and circumstances for people living there are catastrophic, especially considering the fact that we are talking about one of the richest places in the world,

the energy is poorer than poverty, which is a massive part of the Vienna, which I got to know as a top star musician trying to make a living through street music on iconic places like the Hofburg Imperial Palace, Maria Theresien Platz and the scary hopeless underground stations from Karlsplatz to Stephansplatz to Prater and beyond. 

Vienna was a one of a kind experience, shocking as well as beautiful but I can't say that I wouldn't miss any second of it because I was basically in maximum panic mode all the time, overwhelmed with my life and everything, just getting panic attacks non stop and trying to make it as n artist, to overcome my performance anxiety for good and become better in my Gigs - no matter  how much ice cold hate I regularly received from people for literally no reason because the only thing I actually did was making world class music and trying to perform at my best at any time - a goal, which I did actually hit quite often during that Time.

But Vienna really knocked me out also and when I was finally able to make it to Croatia, and I ended up in Porec, I feel like I needed therapy from life - while at the same time, my life was becoming more chaotic, endangered, cruel and torturing than ever,  with the sad climax of Honeys death on 4th of December 2023, 

so things became even worse and we have literally been through the worst horror scenarios together as a family, who has been constant target of sexual abuse or other crimes against our lives, souls & belongings. 

I really had the worst time ever in Porec and I am so sad to say that but I am so so so so happy that we finally made it to PULA, where still, things aren't perfect yet, also because we miss HONEY like crazy, but we are in the most fortunate position, finally healing and ready to function reliably and take over the world together - also to honor HONEY & build the HONIGKEKS legacy in her name.

I am so grateful for all the LOVE and KINDNESS that I already experienced here from almost literally everyone, which is such a massive contradiction to the horrifying hate vibe that I was constantly exposed to in Vienna and here, in my HOME TOWN <3 I feel like I've always been a superstar and I never left and thats so surreal but beyond beautiful to experience and I want to say a massive 

THANK YOU PULA PEOPLE; FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART & FROM ME & THE PUPPIES:

THANK YOU ENDLESSLY FOR BEING SO MAGNIFICENTLY PERFECT TO US; THANK YOU FOR LOVING US; THANK YOU FOR WELCOMING US SO LOVELY; THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS CHERISHING, CELEBRATING AND LOVING OUR STREET MUSIC, 

AFTER I ALREADY HAD GIVEN UP ON IT AFTER 3 YEARS OF VERY HARD AND PAINFUL EXPERIENCES, 

YOU ARE THE REASON, 

FOR ME TO KEEP PLAYING. 

I AM OVERWHELMED BY HOW MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT AND HEART AND GOOD WILL WE ARE EMBRACED WITH HERE, 

WE FEEL HOME, 

WE FEEL HUMBLED, 

WE FEEL HONORED, 

WE FEEL HAPPY, 

WE FEEL LOVED, 

WE FEEL RESPECTED, 

WE FEEL ACCEPTED, 

WE FEEL WELCOME, 

WE FEEL SUPPORTED, 

WE FEEL SAFE, 

WE FEEL APPRECIATED, 

WE FEEL SIGNIFIKANT, 

WE FEEL INSPIRED, 

WE ARE BEYOND GRATEFUL ALREADY AND 

THE BEST

IS YET TO COME!!

THANK YOU PULA, 

THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE, 

HERES TO THE MOST MAGICAL FUTURE FOR US, TOGETHER, 

INCLUDING MY FIRST EVER BIG OWN CONCERT IN THE ARENA TOGETHER WITH DAVID GARRETT, HAUSER & FRIENDS! <3

WE LOVE YOU FOREVER FOREVER,

L E T S  R O C K 

DAVID'S IVORY PRESLEY & THE PUPPIES <3<3<33