VALENTINES LOVE

 Hello my sweetest Reader(S), 

first I want to thank you to be here and to be part of my exciting journey to success, which was, as you might have witnessed, very very rocky and scary within the last 10 years, but after all the crazy challenges and experiences, I feel like I am finally at a point of peace and happiness in my life...and the rest, that I deeply long for, like seeing my future husband for example, is just a matter of smart and focused work, 

so I am happy to announce that I am back on my romantic track and I aim to share this beautiful gift of eternal LOVE with everyone, 

who has luckily been sent here by (the grace of) GOD, in order to HEAL, HOPE, HAVE FUN, HAPPY-the-VERB , and really HEAL into a new, happy, healthy, reality full of safety, the feeling of true trust and connection, comfort and the joy of LIFE. 

For me, everything has always been about LOVE and LOVE and LOVE and LOVE and LOVE, 

because in my essence, I am PUREST LOVE, 

with the purest intentions and a golden heart, which I daily turn into art, 

because I was made of and born from purest LOVE, my wonderful MOM,

the most perfect person ever, 

who I always hold so dearly and closely to my heart - but sadly never in my arms. :(

Growing up as a single child of her in the horrors of the Yugoslavian war in the early 90ies, then together making it to Frankfurt, Germany in 1993, where she got married and gave birth to my younger sister back in 1994, no matter what happened and no matter how often we moved places, one thing was always clear: 

my mom and me are inseparable - until like 8 years ago, when I decided to go travel the world and left everything behind, that ever meant something to me: my family, including of course my mom, my sister, my beloved dogs HONEY & ROCKET, my friends, my home & all my belongings,

heart broken I went out into the world and got rewarded with priceless experiences in a lot of beautiful countries in ASIA, AUSTRALIA, USA, EUROPE and especially in Germany.

Only my home country, Croatia, which I left in tears in 1993, I barely ever got to explore and experience, 

the reality is that the day we moved to Frankfurt, just before the actual Croatian Country was independently founded, all of Croatia, which was all I knew and was and loved,

died within me.

Due to language barriers with other children as well as random rassistic attacks against my mom, the Croatian Voices in me, us and our lives, were suddenly silenced and I remember clearly how I was from one day to the next, 

confronted with new children in the new Kindergarden (in Frankfurt), who I was suddenly not able to communicate with, 

because my - in my hometown PULA at that time so highly loved and appreciated CROATIAN LANGUAGE SKILLS, who made me a 3 year old a star everywhere, where I would speak, 

these language skills didn't help me anymore, the opposite was the case: 

in stead of applause, I earned laughter, I felt ashamed and ridiculed, unable to control the situation, helpless, hurting and hurt, unwanted, unloved, unappreciated, disrespected and panicking - highly uncomfortable emotions, which probably all of us can relate to.

The pain of "not being good enough", / "not being worthy" cut so deep, that I stopped speaking Croatian for good that day and swore to myself, that I would become the best ever German Speaking Genius that the world has ever read, felt, honored, loved and SEEN. 

30 years later, I am close. and I am pretty proud of that. Not in a competitive way, not in a way of trying to make others feel small or insecure about themselves, 

but in a way, that I am aware of the infinite gift that I received through all the education that I was so fortunate and lucky and gifted to consume over the course of my lift, 

that it now enables me to take the miracle of German language and invite her to co-create the greatest ever magic together with you and me - for a better world. 

For me, German, really means understanding, loving, feeling, honoring, holding on to something, loyalty, trust, safety, but also humor, passion, high class, ambition, intelligence, mercy, grace & victory.

But as much as I LOVE TO DO MAGIC WITH GERMAN WORDS AND MEANINGS, and they are so virtuous and deep, I can't even find words, 

I am aware, that ENGLISH, is - next to music , body & sign & eye language & laughter & cries - the one and only universal language, which is highly spread around the planet in all levels, countries and classes, therefore I see it as very important, that I make my message as clear and easily understandable and accessible to as many people as possible, 

because, it is a message of LOVE and the LOVE for LOVE and the LOVE for LIFE and the LOVE for LIGHT and the LOVE FOR GOD and the LOVE OF GOD, which is all we need at the end of the day - once we are blessed to get to know it. 

At the end of the day, language is in the first place a tool of communication, something that allows us to harness and share and develop our thoughts in a beautiful logical process, 

but the focus lies on the COMMUNICATION itself and what this LIFE is really about, is us being aware of LOVE and the deep necessity for us to GIVE LOVE and RECEIVE LOVE, 

beyond all languages, I mean, it is about languages: LOVE LANGUAGES. <3 

to be continued!. <3 

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